Goals

For a moment, I'm putting aside my nursing goals to talk about my personal goals.  Now that school is done, and we are pretty settled into our new home, I actually have time to do things like baking and reading without fighting with myself about spending time on something other than studying or packing!  So, I have some personal, non-nursing related things that I want to work on for myself.  Here it goes:
1. Do more baking.  I found the spring form pans we received as a shower gift over 4 years ago when we were unpacking.  I have to admit it has inspired me quite a bit to get back to baking, trying new things.  I want to learn how to make cheesecake, and make a dang good cheesecake at that.  I want to improve on my cupcake icing skills.  I made cupcakes tonight, and finally used decorating tips to frost them, and I didn't do too bad, but I do need to improve.  I probably need to plan to have more frosting on hand than normal until I get better at being consistent.  Either way, I just want to master more things with baking.

2.  Get my sparkle back.  When I get busy, I sacrifice things like facials, hair cuts, highlights, pedicures....  The last two times I've gotten my hair colored, I brought my school books with me so I could study.  It's not been the relaxing time that it should be.  And even now, I hardly have any time to do these things because of how many hours I'm working.  So, my goal is start making time for this in a couple of weeks once I get more things done with decorating the apartment.  I have however started going back to the tanning bed, because I need the Vitamin D boost since I haven't been able to enjoy much outside time lately (not like I would want to anyway with how hot its been lately...yuck!)

3.  Read more.  I love reading, but it is so hard for me to just suck it up and get started. 

4.  I have to accept that no matter how much I wish I could fix certain situations, I can't if the other people involved don't want to fix it.  I am not a sweep-it-under-the-rug kind of person, because I grew up being expected to do that when I was hurt.  If the other party can only conclude that I'm just crazy for being upset, and they are in no way responsible at all or have done anything wrong, I have to start to accept that person is not someone who is going to be in my life, nor am I going to waste my time anymore.  My attempts at being nice or trying to talk things out have obviously been big, fat failures, so I give up.  I don't like it, because it doesn't just affect me, it affects the people around me, but I refuse to put my feelings out there anymore.  As much as I want to hope that people can grow up, and work things out like adults, I am starting to think I have to start realizing people aren't as grown up as they should be.

5.  Being better about being on time.  My boss has always been super lenient with me, and doesn't ever say "Erica, why were you 5 minutes late today?".  From day one , as long as I wasn't opening up the office, it was "Oh, whenever you get here is fine".  She's very laid back about this stuff, and I have to admit, after 5 years, its not even a thought to me anymore.  But I'm trying to be better about it because I want to make sure I'm getting my hours in, especially because there are times we get out earlier than expected, and if I came in late, it takes a chunk out of my paycheck.  I'm hardly ever late when I work at the hospital because they monitor it, and have policies they adhere to pretty strictly, so I know my being lax about time is a result of not feeling like my boss cares.  I must change this.

I think I'll stop here, because I'm sleepy and there is some train wreck show on VH1 about girls partying with their moms...wth?