So I am about to finish up my 2nd week of school. I am sad that summer is over, because its been so nice. I was really busy over the summer though between working at the hospital and the dental office. I am deeply torn about continuing to stay at both, I know I really should just quit the dental office, but I have been there so long that its tugging at my heart strings to consider actually leaving. Although there have been some new developments that make me wonder if now would be the better time to jump ship. Anyway, I was super busy, so I don't feel like I really had a summer.
My problem now, is that despite it already being 2 weeks of school.....my motivation is MIA. I don't feel that terrifyng feeling that I will be kicked out that I had last year that kept my ass in check. I know some people who would say its a good thing to be more relaxed, but they don't understand that my anxiety about failing is what made me do so well. It made me kick my own ass so I didn't have any teachers doing it for me. Maybe after our first test on Wed, I'll get back into gear.
I have come to accept that its ok that certain people are not meant to be in my life, and that even though I may never know or understand their reasons or actions, its ok because the more I stress myself about it, the more I am continuing to let them have any kind of effect on me whatsoever. I am not a perfect person, but I am a good person and that's all that matters. Those that want to be in my life and want me in theirs will show it, simple as that. It's all about the quality, not quantity, of the people in your life.
So besides my missing motivation, things are pretty good!! So I am going to shower and see if the steam will make my laziness go away!!
