I am happy to say that I lost 4 pounds this week. My grand total so far is 37.4! I know I have really kicked butt this week going to the gym and walking in the forest preserve, but part of me is never really sure it has paid off as I make my way to the scale. I always get a little bit of self doubt as I am taking my shoes off and stepping on. I kinda hold my breath while I wait for the person weighing me in to say something, as long as they say something positive instead of simply "ok", then I know I'm ok. It is when they say nothing to you at all that you know you've bombed it that week. Luckily, that has only happened to me once, which was the week of my birthday, and I only gained 0.8 lbs that week, so I think I did alright! :)
I know this may come as really vain, but I love getting to talk about my milestones during my meetings. The applause I have gotten from my first weigh-in to today as I announced my 7th 5lb milestone just makes me feel like I'm doing something right. Obviously, it's not a good thing to have so much more weight to lose than the typical Weight Watcher, but it does feel good to know that my total pounds lost gets higher and higher, that maybe I'll inspire another person. I can't really say I have any secrets other than finding ways to incorporate foods that I love into my daily points and being more active, and not going on a downward spiral because of one bad meal, one bad day, or one bad week. You just gotta pick it up, and keep going.
I also had a really unexpected thing happen to me last night. I was looking at the workout pants at Target, because I wanted some capri pants since it is getting warmer outside. They didn't have very much in the size that I was looking for, which was a XXL. I tried on one pair, and I felt so self-conscious because of how paper thin these pants felt and thought I might have a Lululemon situation going on if I bent over. I decided to wait, but decided to take a really quick glance over to see if I couldn't find anything else that worked. That's when I saw a pair that seemed to be exactly what I wanted on a lovely XXL hanger. When I scanned it on the price check thing, it didn't come up, so I asked someone for help who told me they had been clearanced out of inventory, but she could give it to me for the last selling price, which was $6. I thought that sounded pretty fair, but I better try them on first for fear I wouldn't be allowed to return them. I doubled checked the size, yep, def a XXL. When I tried them on, I had a little trouble getting them up past my hips, but once I did, they fit fine. I didn't feel like I was being squeezed or constricted, so those babies were mine!!
I then get home, and start putting away our groceries and the pants were the last thing I took out of the bags. This seemed the moment where I could actually read the label on the tag right, and it said XL. I couldn't believe it at first, but my eyes weren't playing tricks on me. I honestly wouldn't have tried them on at all last night had I known before hand that they were only an XL because I would have assumed I couldn't fit into them. It was completely unexpected, yet definitely pleasing. :)
I also burned my way through 2.5 minute run intervals yesterday. Oh my goodness, my legs were burning!! But I did it. I know it will get easier. 1.5 minute runs sucked so bad when I first started doing them, and I didn't think I'd ever get used to it, but now, they are super easy to get through. So I know, I will someday giggle at myself for thinking 2.5 minute intervals were hard. I decided to give myself today off because I was a little hurty last night, which isn't that bad considering I worked out every single day last week. A little hurty is acceptable after 7 days.
My goal is to do the same this week up to Friday, since it is our anniversary. I don't plan on tracking much next weekend, but luckily since I weigh in on Saturdays, I can sandwich it between 2 weeks of working out to minimize the damage, lol. I'm halfway to my next goal, and I want to get there really bad!! But I also want to enjoy myself as we celebrate our 5 year milestone.
Other than that, I am just working my weekend. I hope for it to go as smoothly as it can. I had a real bad scare with one of my favorite residents. They started having chest pains, and luckily the nitrostat tabs alleviated it, but this was the first time I had to deal with this. This is the part of my job that I don't look forward to. You can't help but connect with people you care for everyday, and get to know them, and truly care for them beyond just simply "I'm your nurse, here are your pills, see you later". So, to think about the eventual passing away is not easy, and it takes quite a bit to keep myself from crying. I know it is something that is part of life, but I just can't help but be sad at the thought of it.
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