I am beyond thrilled to get to celebrate my first Nurses week as a true and bonafide nurse. I still have a hard time saying "I am a nurse" sometimes, because it is still so new to me. It still feels good to say. I am still so incredibly grateful that I was able to accomplish this dream of mine, and all of the support I received along the way, and for everyone who believed in me even when I wasn't so sure of myself. I officially had completed all of my requirements for graduation by this point last year, and it is really hard to believe it has already been that long.
Nursing school feels more and more like a distant memory, which is a good thing when it comes to certain aspects. The paralyzing anxiety before simulation testing, while waiting for your test scores, and the gut punch when you see your holistic back in your mailbox with your teacher's grading on it. I would honestly suggest anyone about to start nursing school to get to your doctor, and get medication for anxiety immediately. I'm not sure how many more breakdowns I would have had without it.
So, now that I am a working nurse, it feels so good to truly celebrate Nurses week. Sure, I may not have ended up where I wanted to for my first job, but it isn't a bad job at all, and I love my residents. We were at a flea market yesterday, and I kept seeing things that I would have loved to buy because they reminded me of certain residents. I stopped myself because I didn't know how appropriate it would be to buy things for them, but it was hard to do so because I knew so-and-so collected these, or this would be aweseome because so-and-so used to play this instrument in their younger days. I've grown attached to them, and I know this will be an extremely difficult factor for me when I do someday land a nursing position in a hospital.
I have been halted in my running progress. I decided to start a May Squat Challenge, and foolishly off of one posted that started you at 80 squats for day one, 100 for day two, and so on. I did 100 squats Thursday night, and I have been in utter pain since then. Sitting down or standing up is incredibly painful, walking is painful, and my knee has been extremely
painful even just laying down. I have been told before to work through the pain, but this isn't just soreness, its been an almost crying in pain with each moment kind of situation. Sadly, I gave myself a break. I'm not going to be able to run at all if I push myself into a full-on injury.
Today has been the first day where I'm not in as much pain, so tomorrow, I may just go for an easy walk, and then on Wednesday, start my run/walk app over again. I am sad to be slowed down in my progress, but it is what it is. Normally, when this happens, I just stop going to the gym all together. This time is different for me, I know I need to get back as soon as it is safe to do so. Plus, we may be going to Milwaukee with my friend and her husband to do the Color Run in Milwaukee in August. That will give me 3 months to get into running mode, so resting now is in my best interest.. I know I can do it if I am smart about it! It also gives me a concrete goal, and it is a realistic one.
My weigh-in went alright on Saturday. I lost 0.8 pounds. I was a little disappointed, but I can't beat myself up after just having 5.2 loss the week before. It made it a little harder to enjoy myself when we went out with friends on Saturday and with Mom and Dad in law on Sunday, knowing I can't really work out much until I heal up. But it's ok, as long as I keep going, I'm still making progress. I did get an exercise mat and some hand weights so I can do other exercises at home, and it makes me feel good to get a collection of exercise items going.
Work is in a couple if hours, so I gotta get moving!!
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