Sick :(

I am fighting an upper respiratory infection right now.  It was pretty strange to actually be able to sense it coming on step by step.  Usually, you just wake up one morning sick out of nowhere.  This time, I could feel the congestion in my nose, then it was the post nasal drip, then the sore throat, then the inability to breathe through my nose.  Luckily, the OTC medication I got have been keeping it under control enough for me to go to work and still function.  I do still feel wiped out, and am so incredibly happy to go to sleep when I have gotten home from my shifts.  The thing that I dislike the most about it is I have no energy to run, and I hate it.  I hate that I feel like its putting me off track of getting ready for my 5k next month.  Once this cold passes, I really have to step it up.

I just have to get through today, and then I have tomorrow off.  I am working a double again on Wednesday, but I'm not working Thursday, so I think it will be ok as long as this cold is gone by then.  Luckily, the cold happened this weekend instead of next.  As weird as it may seem, I'd rather be sick the weekend I have to work, rather than the one I have off so I can actually enjoy my time off.  We are going to the Sausage Fest at Wrigleyvillle on Sunday for Father's Day, and I'm pretty excited about it.  I wish we could go on Saturday, because I think the bands that are playing on Saturday are way better, but it will still be fun either way.  I'm also happy we are gonna do something different for Dad's day than the typical cookout we have, we need to start switching things up a bit for the family GTGs.

I somewhat reluctantly went to weigh-in on Saturday.  I was prepared to be told I gained, and was gonna ask for a new pass book since mine would be filled up, and it was gonna be like starting over!  New book, clean slate.  But I actually lost!  It wasn't much, just 0.8 lbs, but still, after thinking I had gained a couple of pounds, I'll take it!  So, I'm at 38 pounds lost now.  I really would like to reach my next short term goal in two weeks, or reaching 50 in 2 weeks would be even better, but I know that is unrealistic, so I'll settle for reaching 45 in 2.

Speaking of 50 pounds, I have decided I am going to reward myself once I reach that amount of weight loss.  I really haven't been rewarding myself along the way.  Most of the time it has consisted of, "Woohoo, I lost big this week, I'm gonna enjoy this Venti White Mocha from Starbucks!".  I have weeks where I lose a LOT of weight, and then I get off track because I think I have room to slack a little.  Then it just turns into a week of slack.  Luckily the running has kept me on track weight wise, but I know I can't out exercise a bad diet, it will catch up with me.  So anyway, to use as something to motivate me besides food, I decided its time for a new Coach bag!

I'm not sure on what color I want, but I definitely want this one:

I like the color in the picture, but I also like the black on black one, and they have a light khaki once, too.  I have a couple of wristlets that I have liked to use for trips downtown when I didn't want to bring my whole purse, but then its on my wrist, and it can get heavy.  I have always wanted a crossbody swing pack, but unfortunately, due to my size, they never sat comfortably on me.  The strap wasn't long enough, and they always sat a little bit under my boob.  So, I was pretty happy when I happened to put one on the other day when we were out shopping that it sits lower by my waist now!  So this is my treat to myself for reaching 50 pounds, and it is going to feel pretty good to be able to not have to fumble trying to keep my purse on my shoulder, or getting a sore wrist from cramming too much into my wristlets!  Hardest part is going to be deciding on the color.  I have 2 black Coach bags, and I have 2 grey Coach bags, and I have a khaki wristlet, so I can't decide easily just based on what I don't already have.  The grey is what I'm leaning towards the most, because I love the other grey bags I have, I feel they go with more things than my black bag, but the khaki is not without its appeal!  So, we'll have to see what I decide on!!

That is all for now, I have to muster up the energy to get ready for work, this whole being sick, but not being able to call out even though I'm in a position where I should not be at work when sick because I'm working with residents who are older and more vulnerable to illness, yet I would feel horrible for calling out because I think my boss would be upset with me because there is no one who could cover for me thing sucks.  We help people get better, yet put ourselves through the exact opposite of what we preach.  We go entire shifts without peeing, don't eat or drink during our shifts, or when we do, its on unhealthy stuff.  We don't sleep enough because stress from work interferes.  No wonder I am sick right now.