Or Not

So....during clinical orientation on Thursday, I found out my letter of intent was a big waste of time.  My instructor told me that doing my capston in L&D was not possible.  I guess it was worth a try, and maybe my letter of intent will still open up some opportunities to be placed somewhere more exciting to me than a simple Med-Surg floor. 

*sigh*

I survived the first week, and only 7 more to go.  I do think that my clinical instructor is going to be great, although all of my clinial instructors for the most part have seemed absolutely terrifying to me one way or the other.  I just hope to have another successful clinical rotation, and ending nursing school on a positive note.  There is sooooo much work to be done, which I'l say it....feels like busy work for atleast half of it.  But whatever I gotta do to get past this chapter of my education!

Tomorrow is my first day of being at school from 800 to 1800 (I am trying to incorporate military time into my life to get used to it so I don't screw up my charting, I'll let you figure it out).  It is going to be a long day due to the 4 hour break between one class to the other, but atleast I will have that time to study, practice skills, and meet with my mentees.  Yeah, in addition to all of our stuff, we have to meet with a 1st semester student (or two or three) and preceptor them on passing PO meds, Head to Toe assessment, and introduce them to the Simulation Hospital, I feel like there is a 4th thing, but oh well.  I remember feeling like the whole mentor thing wasn't useful to me, partly because passing PO meds was not something I found difficult, but had she gone over head to toe assessment me, that would have helped me so much more.  So, I plan on making sure I give as much help as I can to my mentees on head to toe assessment as I can, and whatever help they need on PO meds. 

I know some people will look at it as a chore, and I may even find it inconvenient, too, trying to coordinate two schedules that are completely different; but I am sort of looking forward to being able to be a resource for my mentees, and I want them to feel that I have truly helped them instead of simply satisfying my obligations.  As much as we are taught to educate our patients, why would we be resistent to teaching those who follow behind us?  I personally do not want to exhibit anything that would contribute to this notion of nurses eating their young instead of nurturing them.  If we can't support each other in learning, we can't move forward as a profession. 

*second sigh*

So that's me getting that off of my chest.  I just can't believe I am almost there!!