Summer finally decided to grace us with its presence this week. This summer has been so weird weather wise. One day its blazing hot, then the next day its cold as heck, and then its been raining too much. Despite the weird weather pattern this summer has been giving us, I have managed to get outside quite a bit and have developed a pretty decent tan for the first time since I was a child that didn't come from a tanning bed. Walking outside in the forest preserve, going to the pool, and just being outside in general. It has felt pretty good, and this summer has been a really good one. I've done a lot of things that I've never done before or haven't done in such an incredibly long time, and I feel really proud of myself for those things. I'm even going to my first Zumba class tonight, which is something I have wanted to do for so long, but never did because I worried about being the fat chick gasping for air after 5 minutes. I'm pretty excited and nervous at the same time, I hope I love it.
I've also been enjoying myself a little bit too much food wise and relaxing instead of exercising. I just wanted to grill out, make our own version of Toasty Cheese sandwiches, and celebrate my new found love of BBQ Pulled Pork Nachos. And had amazing lunches with good friends and good food. And cooked an amazingly delicious (but totally unhealthy) dinner for my in-laws (Cannoli dip is amazing). And I discovered I've been a damned fool to deny myself Nutella (I seriously decided it wasn't for me after ONE bad Nutella crepe at Wildberry), Nutella is amazing with the aforementioned cannoli dip, strawberries, on a spoon straight out the jar. I'm in love, and I think this is going to be a lasting relationship.
Alright, so yes, Summer time is synonymous with good food for me, and that isn't always Weight Watchers friendly. Once you add in the difficult time I've been having personally/emotionally despite all the amazingly good things we've been blessed with, I've just not been on track. Even this week with my attempt to get back into gear, you give me enough stress at work and a bag full of chocolates from a hospice or home health rep, and I blow my whole day points wise. I've been working on a lot of the negative thoughts that fill my head that keep me from doing what's best for me, and I just want to get back into gear. Truly, working out and eating on plan makes me feel good, it really does. So, I need to give in to what feels good all day instead of what just feels good just for moment and then gives me a day full of guilt. I'm going to go weigh in this week for the first time in probably a month, despite the fact that I probably will show a gain. It's gotta help me get back on track.
Speaking of things that make me feel good, I walked to Panera today instead of driving. Sure, I felt a little weird ordering my food all sweaty (its effing hot outside), but I walked there and back, and that felt really good. And I listened to Katy Perry's "Roar" on repeat the whole way because that song just makes me feel good. In fact, I am playing it now while I type. Sure, its bubblegum pop, but I don't really care. I can appreciate music that isn't super deep and thought-provoking. Sometimes you just need something that makes you wanna dance in your seat and makes your heart feel happy. And Katy Perry is really good at supplying that.
I am working this weekend unfortunately, but I'm ok with it. Weekends, especially holiday weekends tend to be easy-going, even though I wouldn't bet money on it. The biggest problem will probably be the families who take their loved ones out of the facility without getting their medications, so it screws with my schedule a bit. But it all gets done eventually. Working every other weekend, especially a PM shift is hard because you have to squeeze social outings into every other weekend, and miss out on others completely, but this is the standard with my industry. It just is what it is, no sense in getting your panties in a bunch over it.
Life of a nurse. :)
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