In 3 days, we get our keys to our new home, and in 7 days, we have movers coming to officially move us in. Our cashier's check for our deposit and first month's rent is printed, our utilities are set up, and we have a date with Comcast to get our cable and internet set up. We started packing on Thursday night, and I'd say we are about halfway done. Luckily, a lot of our stuff was still packed up from when we moved in two years ago, and I got a little teary this morning seeing it all down from the attic and from their hiding places in the basement.
I had sooooo much anxiety during school about failing a class, because it meant it would delay our moving out. Especially after some family drama that blew up right before my critical care final, which resulted in zero studying being able to happen. I was scared to death that I'd be here another semester. Luckily, someone up above was looking out for me, and things have worked out just fine. I have graduated, I have passed my NCLEX, and now I am just waiting for my license to arrive. I have been able to get back my hours at work (although its been a bit too much!!), which was another worry I had, so that we can afford to move into our own home without having to wait til I find a full-time nursing job.
So, the crying I did when I got the good pop-up after my NCLEX was just releasing all of this stress that has been on my back for the last two years. I wasn't just stressed because school was hard, I was stressed because if I failed, it had consequences for Mike and I. It would have been money wasted, and embarrassment and shame on my part. I felt guilty for doing anything besides studying, and I felt bad for having to say no to invites because of a test, not knowing my clinical schedule, or just simply not being given enough time to plan ahead for it. I realize no one besides Mike really got this, but I wish so much that others would have been understanding of the burden placed on me, rather than thinking I was being difficult.
I am still completely undecided how I want to decorate our new place, and I figure I will just take my time with it picking things out, rather than trying to do it all at one time. I am just ecstatic that this is finally happening! We went to bed one night this week just listing out the things that we were looking forward to, things that we weren't going to miss. We are looking forward to being able to stretch out finally, instead of being cramped up like we have been for so long, and it just being the two of us again.
I am just beyond happy that this is happening, and that we will have a home that we love. We don't want to move again for at least two years. Since I have moved so much since my junior year of high school, its really important to me to feel settled in and feel like a place is home. Our last apartment was the longest I had been in one place since 2001, and that was 3 years in that apartment. I have hated our stuff being boxed up, and fully intend on trying to have everything unpacked that same day, since we have a very important event the next day that we refused to not go to even though we are moving.
So, my break is up, I am going to try to finish packing everything that is packable at this point today, so that we can relax a little bit before the busy-ness begins!!! Truly feeling blessed!!
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