I got my first rejection from my own hospital. :(
It is something I knew would happen, census has been low, and they laid off 100 employees a couple of months ago. So it is far from shocking that I would not be getting a nurse resident program spot, especially considering my unit is dependent upon elective surgeries. I just had a small little beam of hope that was hanging on, waiting on the e-mails back and forth between the nurse recruiter and myself until the final decision was made this week about how many positions they could offer. The units that are able to commit to a nurse resident already have new graduates working on their floor as PCTs. So, at least I know where I stand, and won't feel guilty as I apply to other hospitals.
It is a scary thing to begin this job search, as I have mentioned before. It is a safety thing. I feel safe in my role now, and I'm shoving that safety out there door once I take on my first position as a nurse. I no longer have that safety net of being a student, something goes wrong, it will be on my license (once I have one, of course!). I mean, someone could sue me.....how freaking scary is that to think about? I actually need to buy malpractice insurance soon. It's just a whole new level of employment concerns, lol.
I have been working like a mad woman lately between the two jobs, but I was able to squeeze in some time with my hubs, and we got to grill out for my in-laws, and have yummy cake for my FIL's birthday. We had to skip the Memorial Day stuff, because I was just exhausted, but it was ok. And we fly down to Nashville to see my family, and have lots of yummy Southern food. But once we come back, its onto packing up and studying for my boards! Which I got finger-printed yesterday, and I just have to mail my receipt in, and then wait for my letter that OKs me to test! I'm scared, because I feel like the last two years of school has completely left my brain. And I don't want to pay all this money again to retest!
But TODAY my friends, is my 4th year anniversary with my husband. We aren't doing anything too big because of all that we have going on in our life between our trip, the move, work, and job search stuff. But I am excited to have a night out with him, have some yummy food, and celebrate 4 years of happiness! When I was 17, he came into my life as a friend that turned into my rock. And when we finally met in person 8 years ago, something in me knew he was the one for me. Sure, we have had our ups and downs, but he has never stopped making me laugh every day, and he makes me smile even when we aren't together.
We have grown together, supporting each other in all of life's trials and triumphs. He has been an amazing friend and husband to me, and I only hope to spend the rest of my life returning the favor.
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