Sometimes the person has it coming to them. If you are late because you didn't allow enough time for someone to answer the door because our facility is completely locked down after 9pm, you do not get to cop an attitude with me. It is not my problem, not my circus, not my monkeys. No one is purposely not answering the door the instant you arrive just to mess with you, they are busy. Residents come first, door comes second. And instead of greeting me, you start out berating me for not answering my cell phone that is supposed to be turned off and in my purse per corporate policy, you don't win any points with me, dear special one. You get no sympathy from me, given that the other overnight nurse is NEVER late. So, you should really save the drama for someone who cares. And you try biting my head off for YOUR problem, you get bitchy nurse, not the sweet, helpful nurse that I have always tried to be to you.
Ugh. I didn't even feel bad on my way home after that encounter. Some people need to learn to be humble. I am grossly aware of all that I still need to learn, I have more confidence now than I did 6 months ago, but I'm not stupid to think I know it all. Nurses will never be done learning. There is something new to learn every single day. And given the state of the job market for new graduate nurses, you need to watch yourself very carefully. You lose your first nursing job because of something stupid, you've seriously harmed your ability to get another job. That was why I was so terrified the first 3-4 months, because I had this completely overwhelming fear of making a mistake and getting fired. I have cooled my jets a bit on that front, but I still dread learning I've made a mistake. But I would rather know I made one so I can learn from it.
Saturday was a rough shift for me, sending someone out sucks my time away from me, but that person coming back the same night right after another resident came back after an extended hospital stay unexpectedly with no orders sent over before hand is far, far worse. I was at work until midnight doing all the charting and paperwork and order transcription and ordering of the new medications, and notifying of the doctors, etc. But I got it all done, and didn't make any mistakes that I know of. It was exactly the price I had to pay for taking Sunday off.
It was really weird for me not going to work on Sunday. I am so used to working my three days in a row, that it just felt so unnatural. I kept expecting to get a call that I needed to come in, or even when we left the party, I was like "its 7 p.m., I can go and take over the rest of the night". Its probably because I don't really trust the nurse who was covering for me. I was still able to enjoy myself at the reunion party. It was really nice to catch up with some of Mike's family that I haven't seen in a while, and got completely pooped out by his relative's daughter. We thought we were going to tire her out for her parents, but she tired us out instead. We came home and crashed. We joked that we may have to take up crack to keep up once we have kids of our own. It was fun to entertain her, but it definitely made me feel ok with waiting to have kids. Anyway, so happy I was able to make this, I always have a good time at these get togethers, and reminds me that they are just as much my family as they are Mike's. Plus, my oreo rice krispie treats were a big hit. :)
Today I have my session, and Mike is at work doing overtime cause of a huge problem at work. I may go for a walk outside and enjoy the sunshine. I just need a down day to relax. So that's all for now! :)
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