Saturday, September 28, 2013

Change My Attitude

So, the coworker who tried to bite my head off last week because SHE was late.  I've been thinking about it.  She has given me a lot of reasons to dislike her, true, but I need to change my attitude that I've developed towards her.  Acting like she knows everything, never makes mistakes, isn't responsible for the mistakes she makes, and can't be bothered to smile and say hello when she comes in.  While these may be things that make her easy to dislike, giving a cold front isn't going to change it.  Instead of getting irritated when she doesn't bother to say hello, just "What are you doing here?", I'm going to say "Hello to you, too" and hope she can catch on.  I'm going to stop wishing for her to mess up big time so that she will learn to be humble, and admit she doesn't know it all.  This may never happen, and its not worth my energy to think about it.  I feel like having this attitude about her makes me just as bad as the nurses who I felt were picking on me, even if I don't take it as far as they did.  So, I have to stop.  And I will.

Of course, speaking of, I'm probably gonna get chewed out by the nurse I work with on the weekends, because other coworkers were complaining about her, but of course, she thinks because she only works with me, that I was the one to complain about her.  It is true that she never helps me, but I went into it knowing she would not help me, so I've never expected anything else from her.  I'm actually thankful for this, because it helped me a great deal in being able to get through my shift without needing any help most of the time.  I'm a terrible liar, so I hope I can play dumb well enough to get her to calm her jets with me.  But we will see.

Women are so catty.  We are.  It is not easy to work with a bunch of women without having drama.  Even if most of the women get along, there is usually that one or two that like to stir the pot.  It isn't enough for them to come to work and do their job, they want to make it interesting.  This was one of the big driving forces in me going back to school in the first place, because this was constantly happening with coworkers who were old enough to be my mom.  I was wrong to think that once I was working as a nurse, that this wouldn't be a problem.  Luckily, my interaction with my fellow nurses is pretty limited due to the way we are scheduled, so I am not constantly confronted with it.  I can go about my way without having to sit next to someone for 8 hours giving me attitude, or making my shift hell.  I do wish there was more time to chat like there is at my dental office, but my hourly salary is not what it is just for me to have tons of down time to chat.  That's ok.  I do enjoy being able to go in and do my work, and go home and not take work with me as much as I used to.

Anyway, fall definitely feels like it is here, and I'm really happy about this.  We got our pumpkin dish all filled up with candy corn this week.  I don't really like to decorate for fall that much, because its just not as fun to me without having kids.  I like carving pumpkins, though, so that will definitely happen again this year. :)  I can't wait however to decorate for Christmas, I absolutely love how festive our place looks with everything up.  And I'm excited for Christmas cookies, it makes me happy to bake and decorate my goodies each year.  We have our annual M & E downtown window display and high tea extravaganza all planned.  We have done this every year since we got married.  The tea at the Drake was just added last year though, but its a keeper.  I am so happy my mom-in-law turned me onto hot tea, it is a daily staple in my life now.

I'm not looking forward to the inevitable crappy drives to work as winter arrives this year, but it is amazing how well I handle them now compared to my first winter experience up here.  The first time I flew up here to visit Mike, i bought a coat, scarf, and gloves to prepare.  I thought I was good to go.  Oh no.  I wasn't.  I was wearing my favorite Mary Janes with ankle socks, and long sleeve t-shirts.  I would freeze in the 30 seconds between the door of the hotel to the door of Mike's car.  It was sub zero that week, which I had never experienced temperatures that cold in my life.  Getting below 32 is hard enough in Nashville, being -16 is unheard of.  Yet, this boy that I was head over heels in love with made me move up here despite the crappy winters.  It took about 4-5 winters before I stopped being completely miserable in the winter time.  Now I feel like an old pro at it.  What a difference in 9 years from that first winter visit!! :)


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